“No, you don’t want to be White. They say many bad and horrible things about Black people behind their backs. They say you’re lazy, nasty, stupid, poor. You all live better than my mom and my grandma. Your house is nicer, your food is better, you have a pool. Nothing my grandparents told me about Black people has been true. You wouldn’t believe how I feel when they talk about Black people in front of me, as if one half of me is not Black. They lied about Black people so I wouldn’t want to be around them. I was scared when I came here because of the stuff they told me about Black people. You don’t want to be White. They are terrible. Trust me.”
I am so happy that you spent the time with your gandbabies. It makes me sad that she was afraid of her own grandmother and Black people in general because they conditioned her to fear Black people. They taught her racism and I am happy that you expressed herself to you. At least, she feels she can be safe with you.
Reading this makes me realize that mixed race children need to spend more time with their Black family members.
Behind our backs, so many white people talk about us as if we are less than human. They make up horrible stereotypes about us continue to exasperate racism. Thanks for writing this thought-proking story.