…down. From performance reviews at jobs I’ve had, any criticism was a fail for me, even constructive. I convinced myself that I had to achieve perfect feedback, it couldn’t be anything less. This mentality caused my mental health to deteriorate beyond my control.
I grew up being told I had to work twice as hard for everything as well. That was partially my motivation for going for my Masters in Psychology. I justified that as a Black woman, my M.S. might be as worthy as their B.A. Still when I apply for jobs, I cannot escape my Blackness so that mindframe really did more harm that good. Don't get me wrong. I am happy I got my M.A. but those unreaslistic expectations also made me a perfectionist at work. I overworked myself on several occasions thinking that it was my responsibility to live up to their expectations. Thanks so much for writing this. I can relate.