You are not supposed to feel bad for being White. That would be ridiculous. But, you are privileged. I'd say you fall into the denier (colorblind framework) because you are inherently denying the experiences of your alleged Black friends. However, given your response, I think you have potential to fall into the ally category but it doesn't seem like you want that, which is perfectly fine. It's your choice.

If you read my work, you notice my goal is to appeal to fellow Black people and allies. If you don't fall into those categories, my writing isn't for you.

Name one type of person who doesn't fall under the category. Because so far, all you've done is proven the archetype of the denier.