Your writing always makes me think and I love you for that.
I dated someone with a mental health disorder but unfortunately despite my efforts, he set his hair on fire while I was at work and I had to get him help. Even with a MS in Psychology, I struggle with managing my own mental fortitude and the ones I love.
My X is okay now and I am happy I got him some treatment. At first, my best friend told me that I should leave him and I recoiled. I just wanted to love and protect him. I soon learned that not all mental illness can be handled by friends and family support.
Eventually I had to accept that he was not happy.
I made my old boss drive me to the next parish to try to get him out and after days of fighting with medical professonals, I found out he was happier in there. He said the pressure of being out was too much and begged me not to go to work. I wanted to be there for him but I felt had to financially provide for us so it was hard to leave him at home but I had no other option.
They diagnosed him with schizophrenia. I feel it was brought on by the drowining of two of our friends. It was devestating but he did not come up for air after that tragic lost. I tried so hard to show him love and be there for him.
Now that I'm married, I saw he wrote under my wedding picture that he is so happy for me.
I appreciate your writing because you always keep it real. I get sad and dramaful all the time. If someone loves women like us, they need to accept all the facets of us. None of us are happy all the time and our feelings (diverse as they may be) are valid and worth expressing.